I read a post tonight that was so inspiring, and I think it will inspire you too:
LIVE LIKE NO ONE ELSE (I LOVE her blog)
Interestingly, we tried out a new church last week. The sermon was all about God's provision. It had a touch of a "prosperity" message, which isn't necessarily what Dave and I ascribe to, but he had some great points we've found to be true in our lives. One of the things God asks of us is to give of ourselves in the form of tithe. This is his way of asking us to trust him. But that can be hard when you're struggling.
I mean, is there really ever enough money? Can't we use all of that money for our own needs? God can come up with his own money when he needs it, or there will always be someone more wealthy than us that can give, right? But it's really a trust issue. I give the first 10% (or whatever has been laid on my heart) of my money no matter what, and then I trust that God will be faithful to provide for our NEEDS (maybe not our wants).
I know in this journey we're on to be faithful to paying our debt off, God will be faithful to provide. We are still not sure where the money will come from each month, as we're praying for Dave to find a full time salaried job, but God is providing. Instead of stressing out each month at the situation we're in, I choose to rest in His arms, knowing that he is still refining our faith. If things were easy, would we be so focused on turning to him for our provision? Maybe not.
This path He has us on is leading to our freedom, in more ways than one. Only He knows the ending.