I am amazed at how God will use so many different ways to get through to us. I know that the journey he has put me on started long ago. My personality can tend to be very active, always multi-tasking and rarely taking the time to just sit and BE. I think I used to get my calm from spending late nights reading in a quiet house and I still love to do that. But there's much more...
I married a guy who requires a lot of peace, who demands time with just us as a family and lots of it. In time I have come to treasure those days and evenings, just us and the kids, so that now I need it to feel centered.
This move to Alaska was tough in many ways. Having only one vehicle leaves the kids and I housebound 90% of the time. If I had known it would be like that before we got here, I would have resisted as much as possible. But since we're just surviving right now, I'm okay with it, and I think has been really, really good for me.
If I had a car, I would be running around doing errands, exploring the area and finding activities to keep the kids and I busy. Instead we spend our days in calm; doing schoolwork, cleaning the house, baking, reading and playing. I am working hard on changing my habits of doing busywork and not taking the time to BE with my kids. This lifestyle forces me pay attention to the small things.
This week we went to Anchorage. It was so nice to see my favorite stores like Target and Costco. They have so many lovely restaurants and things to do. But on the other hand, there was traffic and rushing around. It had the big city feeling that I didn't know I could live without. But I can! And I love it.
This means FREEDOM.
I was so thankful to arrive back in Fairbanks. I like our cold, slow and relaxed city. It is mostly quiet, with people going about their business in no rush.
The speed of this town fits us, and it really does feel like home.
I want to go through some of the other things that have changed my perspective, but for now this post is long enough. I am just thankful for where God has me right now and I am looking forward to seeing where he takes me tomorrow.